I can’t come today. I still have a fever. This is the hardest thing I have ever done. To stay away.
Stay away from a loved one because I am sick. I don’t feel bad. Just tired. And hot. And shivery. Nothing else.
Everyone else is bouncy and snarky. They are fine.
I am so tempted to come and see u. But that would be so selfish of me.
I know I am selfish in many things, but this, I am not.
Please know I love you. I call 4 time a day. Sometimes 6 if I think your needs are not being addressed. I ask them each time to say,’I love you...’. I know they don’t always tell you. But know... I do!
Today was one of them. ‘He has shortness of breath so we are going to move him on his right side,’. But they have avoided putting him on his right side because his lung is weaker on that side. ‘ says I.
‘Oh.’ Says she. ‘I didn’t realize.’And so...
It’s torture not going.
May I be fever free soon and wake up fever free.
I have made allies by phone. And I can trust them. I know ‘they good people.’
They push hard, you crumble, they give you rest, you love it, and you are rested. REPEAT.
All in the right direction.
Torture seeing every moment before my eyes.
Heavy sigh....
I love you so much!
Shoog
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