Forgive me for being sad... still.
I’m trying not to be.
Really.
It just feels so heavy
right now.
Heavy.
I have a disabled husband.
He needs me.
I’m here.
I got him.
And that
is not a problem.
I’m just
not so good at it.
But I am learning.
Oh do I hope
beyond hope
that he
would get better.
A miracle
is what we will need.
But reality
is so freaking rude.
‘I need to get
some water,
Advil,
and I need my cough medicine.
I will get it.’
Oh no you won’t.
He can’t.
He can.
But it will take him
thirty minutes
to recover.
So I do it.
I am always
five steps ahead
and make decisions based upon that.
When I sit and think?
Tears will not stop.
So I try not to think.
Just stay busy.
Please pray for us.
We are on the bottom
Of the ocean floor.
XO
Shelli
We will continue to pray for your beautiful family.
ReplyDeleteI may not always comment,but I do check your blog often. XOXOXO