I mean, why...

We were denied again. 

And according to the lawyers, 

‘that’s normal.’  

Can someone tell us what normal looks like so we don’t have to be knocked off of our feet every-time?  Lol

Onward to another appeal. 

And after we get denied from that one, too, we stand before a judge;

who judges us. 

In the meantime, we are out of money. 

We made an arrangement with our mortgage company to lower our bill until we receive disability a while back. 

After many months of deliberating, the mortgage company responds with,’Yes! We can adjust your monthly bill. After six months, you will owe what you weren’t able to pay. At that time, we will re-evaluate your situation.’

EVERY MONTH SINCE THEN, I get a call from the ‘Mortgage Company...’

‘Uhmmm, ma’m, we are calling to tell you that you are behind on your mortgage...’. FORECLOSURE IS COMING. 

And the conversation goes, ‘But we made arrangements!  Why are you threatening foreclosure?’ And on and on...  

So, 

as the time closes in on us and we are responsible for paying what we owe, 

which we do not have, hearts sink 

and 

puddles are plenty. 

After being denied, once again...we have no choice but to sell the house and live on the equity until SSDI decides to pay David disability. 

‘Why?’ You ask. 

‘Why did they deny;

once  again?’

Pulmonary Fibrosis 

is NOT in the BLUE BOOK of diseases 

that qualify one 

for disability. 

Okay......

But if you do a google search on Pulmonary Fibrosis....

(Pause for you to do that...)

Pulmonary fibrosis is a lung disease that occurs when lung tissue becomes damaged and scarred. This thickened, stiff tissue makes it more difficult for your lungs to work properly. As pulmonary fibrosis worsens, you become progressively more short of breath.Mar 6, 2018

Or this...

Signs and symptoms of pulmonary fibrosis include:

• Shortness of breath (dyspnea), including shortness of breath with everyday activities.
• Coughing (chronic, dry, hacking cough)
• Diminished exercise tolerance.
• Fast, shallow breathing.
• Fatigue/tiredness.
• Weakness.
• Chest discomfort.
• Muscle and joint aches.

There's currently no cure for idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis (IPF). The main aim of treatment is to relieve the symptoms as much as possible and slow down its progression. As the condition becomes more advanced, end of life (palliative) care will be offered. 

There is currently no cure for pulmonary fibrosis but treatments and therapies are improving all the time. The average life expectancy of someone with pulmonary fibrosis is three to five years but if it's caught early, treatment can help slow down the progression of the disease.May 25, 2017

And so they say...  But, for David, it is so severe after being in a coma, that there are no treatments available, except the one 

where you should;

Enjoy the days you do have. 

It’s hard not to think maybe they are waiting for him to die????  So they don’t have to pay?????

We are packing boxes and getting rid of things that we won’t be able to keep; 

a hard thing, for certain. 

Moving will come faster than my brain can travel. This months?

At the latest? January?

Heavy sigh...